but you and me, we're just crazy

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i just have to spread the following amazing recap of what my life is to become in the following months. some of you might laugh to yourselves and say 'oh you dork', or you'll just be patting yourself on the back because you were RIGHT and its FREAKY - i'm talking to you sir! thats right! shout out!

so, as most of you know, i intern at this killer studio, the only real one in cleveland basically = i'm super blessed.

THIS FALL, I AM:
- coordinating and curating an entire art show consisting of work made by interns from my shop and 2 other major art organizations in Cleveland. i will have work in it, i will pick out the pieces, i will install and hang it. le yikes and le awesome at the same time and 75% of me is kind of terrified but in the most amazing way.
- starting in october, every sunday i'll be teaching a class on intalgio, which is just a really fancy pants way of saying etchings. people are paying to take this class = whoa.
- i have been given the IMMENSE HONOR of designing and printing my friend luke's wedding invitations. at least 200. we're not sure on a number yet. helllooooo letterpress, so good to see you again.
- CIA litho collection help and collaboration, with barter system litho studio time. time to build up these stone grinding guns again and to be totally cheesy i cannot wait to feel the burn. eh heh heh heh.
- one of my drive-thru regulars at starbucks makes mixed media art as a hobby. after recently discovering that i intend to be a printmaker, has commisioned me to do screen prints of his work on t shirts. quite a few of them.
- plus various never-ending and exciting shows and events like holiday parties and artoberfest and germans coming and all kinds of wonderful happening at the studio.


you know, when i was at the cape i finally had some time to just sit down and think. i read a heck of a lot of books and i thought a lot because summer isn't really a good time for me. no news there. and although i came away from that time still feeling like i had a million things to say and a million things to sort out and a million things to apologize for i realized: all in good time. i find myself wanting to go back to things a lot, i'm a ' can't things just be this way again ' kind of girl, or ' can't we go back to being like that ' kind of girl. it totally sucks, must be all that romance and dreamer stuff i plug into my ears and mind all the time, but i don't mind. it's just who i am.
i felt nostalgic for school today, moving into a house and living with my friends and being with them. having dance parties and cheesy movie marathons and stopping everything busy for an hour just to watch our favorite shows and snake bites in the wee hours of the early morning and cooking meals together. i miss that, but its not like i'll never have it again. it's just a time to make things happen right now. i don't want to go to grad school, i want to get roughed up a little bit. i want to move somewhere and be a little wild woman without having to worry about school being the only option i have. i've been nuts my whole life, i have no intentions of settling that. there are always options, shit economy or not.

no one is leaving, at the end of the day, we'll still talk like we always have and do. we'll still be ourselves, we'll still be us, we'll still have whats ours, yours and mine. we'll still have you're thing and my thing and coming together to do our thing because if there's any time in our lives where we really know whats real to us, i really think that its this time. you know what is and you know what isn't and you know what matters. thats all there is to it, hell or high water. after this, things can so easily become routine and doubtful and bland if you're not careful. so, go with your gut. know and be confident in what and who matters to you, make it happen and push and pray - apparently on average we only use about 30% of our brain capacity and we're all so passive aggressive about our untapped potential. to hell with what other people think, to hell with what matters to them, to hell with who or what you might upset or not effect at all. now is a time to do shit for ourselves, so in short, don't cop out.

i'm going to really try hard to follow my own advice in this matter. after this fall, depending on what may come and what connections are made, i want to be back up in cape cod by march. fall at the very latest, bottom line. i've looked up everything from gallery positions, to screen printing factory jobs to cranberry harvesting - no joke - to waitressing to cooking to whatever. i'm not settling for anything less. i'm going to start out making small woodcuts and screen prints on a table press in a small apartment or room but i'm going to do it. i will get those pieces into galleries, next to all the ridiculous amounts of painting and pottery. that is what i'm going to do and i know it because if there's one thing i'm damn fine at its pushing so instead of waiting for someone to push me, i'm going to push me. sprinkled at sea.

thats all for a while. the only thing i want anyone looking at after this is my art work blog because thats all i want to worry about. it's fall, its been nice and slightly chilly here the past few nights that i have to wear my flannel to bed. i'm going to sit on my porch with best coast and an american spirit.